My husband always has so many great ideas for how to improve our home. Currently our back entrance is ripped up because he is amazing, and is tiling it for us! There seems to usually be some project on the go, and he is really gifted at seeing potential in the spaces in our house that need a little help.
There are many different reasons to work on your house – perhaps it’s to increase the value of your home, make it more esthetically pleasing, safer for your family, etc. I walked through that area of our house today and felt God whisper to me that I had a few more “home improvements” that I needed to do. Not in my physical house, but in my heart.
The Lord always has the perfect timing. Last night if I had felt Him say that, I would not have been as open, as my emotions, and physically body, were overwhelmed with exhaustion. Or maybe He tried saying it, and I just wasn’t listening. Either way, this morning on the other hand I smiled to myself and said “yes, yes I do.”
Last night I was tired, frustrated and I guess just being irritable. That happens to all of us. How you react and what you do with that is completely up to you. I responded by getting angry at my family and ignoring them for a bit. (Yes, this is honesty – I am embarrassed). When I was in my 3 years of Master’s Commission (a discipleship program at our church), I feel like my heart was not just getting a few renovations, it was completely demolished and rebuilt by my loving heavenly Father. All the hurts, pains and bad habits surfaced and I was forced to look them square in the eye and decide how to deal with them. He delivered truth to me and shattered my insecurities. I walked through an intense healing process and became free of a lot of things holding me back.
Now, being out from “under the microscope” so to speak, I haven’t been quite as on top of things. I have let bitterness take root in my heart, I have left some people unforgiven and especially let justice and judgement overtake mercy and love.
I love how the New Living Translation puts Psalm 51:10;
Create in me a clean heart, O God. Renew a loyal spirit within me.
The definition of loyal is giving firm or constant support. For me this needs to happen with Jesus first. I am not always giving Him my full allegiance, I let other things get in the way. Last night when I was really upset, I was not loyal to my family. I think even my baby senses mommy wasn’t being very supportive. Thankfully God isn’t guilt tripping me, He just longs to set me free.
I started out by saying there are many reasons to do Home Improvements. I think there are even more reasons to do Heart Improvements. May I have the courage today to rip the old, moldy, outdated stuff out of my heart and humbly ask my Father to clean our my heart and renew my spirit. I pray that those around me would see the “updates” and be drawn to the light of Jesus Christ.