With TWO MORE SLEEPS until our California trip, I’ve been thinking a lot about the word anticipation.
Wikipedia defines anticipation as;
I think that’s a pretty good descriptor of what I’ve been feeling. As the trip approaches I’m in the tension of wanting it to come so bad and hoping that is doesn’t come too quickly. The idea that I’ll probably sleep through three nights in a row without having to run in and stick a soother back in a mouth, or console a thrashing teether is almost too good to be true. On the other hand, the idea that if my son is in pain or upset and won’t have me near definitely hurts my heart.
The reason I don’t want it to come too quickly, is that I know once it’s here it’s going to so fast, and then I won’t have this big, exciting event to look forward to. Since this trip was a surprise for us, I have no idea when we could be going away somewhere like this without kids. On the other hand, I know the Lord is going to do something in us, and I don’t want to live another day unchanged.
So regardless of how fast or slow I want this trip to come, Tuesday morning at 7:20 a.m. is going to be here and we’ll be arriving at the airport. If I cry when we leave they will definitely be tears of mixed emotions.
The picture of that little boy is so illustrative of myself. I anticipate EVERYTHING! It seems that most events can come and go and I’ll have experienced a wide range of emotions. I am definitely a “feeler” person. I can wake up on a Sunday morning with a deep sense of excitement for church, and then feel torn up inside when I realize it’s during Caleb’s nap, to rise again when I realize he’s going to be ok.
There are many things in life to anticipate.
We can “eagerly await” many spiritual things through the hope that we have in Jesus Christ.
I pray that God, the source of hope, will fill you completely with joy and peace because you trust in him. Then you will overflow with confident hope through the power of the Holy Spirit. (Romans 15:13)
If you take the time to watch this promotional video for the conference we’re attending, I think you’ll understand why I’m experiencing such anticipation!
As I anticipate Tuesday like a little girl waiting for her birthday, and as I anticipate Tuesday as a young mom whose never left her baby that long, I’m so thankful for the promises that my God has made to me. I’m thankful that we are following what he has asked us to do, and going under the covering of our church leadership, for in those two things there is greater protection. I am thankful to be going on a fun trip to California with my husband! I know that my God cares for our needs and our desires!
Are you a “feeler”? Do you anticipate everything? Or are you a little more level hearted?