Pinterest Problems

Okay, I’m going to try word this post as nicely and lovingly as possible. Like I warned in Let Your Voice Be Heard, I felt like God was going to have me speak up to a few things that I think are going to be leading to the detriment of our society. And here is one that has been stirring in my heart for a while.

When I first signed up for Pinterest, I don’t think I fully understood what is was for (who does when they initially sign up for a new social media site anyway). I loved the home decor, and especially the DIY (do it yourself) projects that were suddenly grouped together for me, and I didn’t have to spend hours searching through blogs. It seemed pretty great.

But I have a concern when it comes to two things.

1) Some of the images that are being pinned are really scandalous, revealing and a flat out inappropriate. 

2) I am seeing way too many boards from the married and unmarried alike of people they find attractive. I’ve seen many names for these boards, from “eye candy” to “crushes”. 

Will you bear with me for a moment to understand why I am concerned about these two things, and why I believe you should be too?

First of all, I believe that bikini’s, for example, are not a good thing to be wearing in public. This is for many reasons, but mostly because it causes the men around us to struggle. Now, if you’re alone on a secluded island with just your husband…do what you want. But please, can we all agree to leave our lingerie in the bedroom and work together to fight this issue of lust that is sweeping our world away?

Now, I can already hear people saying that if it’s a struggle for you, don’t follow my boards. And let me say I agree. If you pin an revealing picture, I will unfollow you immediately, because my husband or son could be sitting right next to me. 

Should we though, contribute to another person’s struggle? In Romans 14, Paul talks about how it is better for us to not eat meat or drink wine if it will cause another believer to stumble. He is so concerned for the stability of the other believer and that they not fall to their temptations, he says it’s better to not partake in the activity at all then to lead another believer astray.

Secondly, if you are purposefully drooling over bodies that you find attractive, you are lusting over them. I think sometimes as Christian women we can think that lust is just something that men deal with.

In the long list of fruits of the flesh, lust is right alongside sexual immorality and impurity. Philippians 4:8 says

And now, dear brothers and sisters, one final thing. Fix your thoughts on what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise.

The last thing that I think is probably the biggest issue, is the problem with comparison. No woman (or man) wants to be compared with an unrealistic, air brushed model. You can’t live up to it. If my husband had some open infatuation with another woman, whether he knows her personally or not, I would be hurt beyond what words can describe.

Lust can be as powerful as a drug, and so can insecurity. Relationships today need more security, trust and wholehearted faithfulness, not less. We should go above and beyond the call of duty to show our spouse that they have our undivided love and adoration. If you are not married yet, I encourage you to practice this principle, and not develop habits that will be hard to reverse later on.

I was struck by this verse in Song of Solomon 2:15 the other night as we were reading.

Catch all the foxes, those little foxes, before they ruin the vineyard of love, for the grapevines are blossoming!

Hear me say this: More often than not it is the little things that ruin relationships. Catch the little foxes, the little habits, patterns and sinful actions because they destroy your love.

If you have regrets, don’t feel guilty or under the weight of any condemnation, just choose this day to be an example of holiness, purity and modesty to a confused generation.


Don’t fear, child.

Fear can creep into your life in many different ways, and at various times. Fear is no respecter of schedules or to do lists. There is no isolated circumstance that brings fear. You can be in the midst of huge life change, or simply in a quiet stage of life, and out of know where fear of the unknown, or bugs, or injuries can invade you.

As I was praying about some of my fear of the next few months, I felt this verse come to my mind.

This is my command—be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.” Joshua 1:9

Instantly I started telling myself to stop being a wimp, and to be courageous, and that God was commanding me. I was getting down on myself for being afraid, because I was breaking a commandment from the Lord.

But the Lord gently corrected me and provided a picture for me to understand.

The last few months, Caleb has been waking up in the night panic screaming. He is just wailing at the top of his lungs, sounding absolutely terrified. It freaks me out every time, and all I do is go in and say essentially this;

“It’s ok, Mommy is here. Don’t be afraid, it’s ok. You’re ok, don’t worry, honey. Mama’s here, and daddy’s here, and Jesus is here too.”

My heart in that moment is moved with deep compassion for him because I KNOW that everything is ok and he doesn’t need to fear anything. I know he’s needlessly panicking. After that reassurance he usually drifts back to sleep for the night.

I am not going in and telling him harshly to stop being afraid, and telling him that he is disobeying me in his fear.

My heart is soft toward him, and my love for him seems to overflow in that moment, longing to assure him that everything is all right.

That is what the Lord is saying to me. I struggle with relating the Father to a loving and caring God. I often think he’s upset with me. So when I felt that verse come to my heart, my reaction was “ahh I need to stop being afraid because the Lord’s upset with me for unnecessarily stressing out.”

But this is not true.

The Father, as a loving parent, is rushing in to my darkness and gently saying, it’s ok daughter. Don’t be afraid. It’s ok. You’re going to be all right. You don’t need to be afraid. I’m here. I’m greater. I love you.

I’m not in trouble for being afraid, the Lord’s heart just breaks for me because he knows it’s unnecessary.

I can easily drift back to sleep with those kinds of words be whispered to me.

Let Your Voice Be Heard

Today’s society is facing a lot of moral dilemmas. Issues are coming up daily and we have to decide if we are going to speak to them, or if we are going to be quiet. The phrase I hear most often is “well that’s not my problem” or “that is their decision, it has nothing to do with me.” The truth is other people’s choices DO have something to do with you, your kids and your grandchildren. Decisions today are impacting our society tomorrow.

A while ago our senior pastor spoke about his sorrow regarding some of the moral issues that have come up in our world during his time as a pastor, and his lack of response to them for many years. He used the example of abortion, and how he wasn’t informed and wasn’t actively fighting against it. He said he failed because during his watch, our nation was crumbling.

The Lord says these sobering words in Ezekiel 33:6;

But if the watchman sees the enemy coming and doesn’t sound the alarm to warn the people, he is responsible for their captivity. They will die in their sins, but I will hold the watchman responsible for their deaths.

I commend our pastors bravery for admitting that, but it stirs in my soul a question as to what is slipping under the radar during my watch? As I move to a level of influence as a parent, what am I adding my voice to?

Is it our place to speak to a couple that is planning on getting married and you know that there are some big issues in their relationship that is going to be detrimental down the road? Saying “it’s none of my business” is the fear-based decision to make. The truth is, if they get married, and eventually have children, they will be your kids friends, classmates and peers. The pain that comes from divorce and the negative impact that it has on kids, doesn’t just affect the child of the divorcing couple. As your child becomes the peer support, they will have to navigate through tough waters, and handle the fear and doubt that comes their way regarding their own parents marriage. Not to mention that statistics point to bad behaviour arising from unstable homes, that subsequently will be influencing your kids as well.

No one is an island unto themselves. Every decision we make affects someone else.

The time will come when you need to speak to something and there might be very few people on your side. Do you know ahead of time what your stance is going to be? Have you predetermined in your heart that you are an ambassador for the Lord’s truth before trying to maintain friendships?

I was afraid the other night as I posted a video link to my personal Facebook page talking about why Christian women shouldn’t feel ok wearing a bikini in public. I had a knot in my stomach, but I know the Lord has asked if I’ll be willing to be a voice to some of these issues. To my surprise, many other people shared the link too! I was far from alone on my stance.

In the coming days I will eventually write about this topic, so that you hear my heart about modesty as a wife, and a mom to a son. The onslaught against men in the area of lust is outrageous. Women, if you haven’t asked God to show you the battle, you need to pray that He does. The only way the men in your life are going to stand strong is with a courageous enough woman to look these issues in the face. (But this is another blog post, for another time!)

Anyway, perhaps this is my introduction to future topics. Ultimately my heart is that each of us, as men and women of God would become clothed in the armour of God, and full of the fruit of the Spirit, as we boldly take a stance in a world that wants to lull us to a place of standing for nothing.

Friends, this is becoming my theme verse. Let is soak into your heart.

 So let’s not get tired of doing what is good. At just the right time we will reap a harvest of blessing if we don’t give up. (Galatians 6:9)

We won’t be responsible for the outcome of our society, but we will be responsible for what we did to impact it.

A Quarrelsome Wife

While talking with a friend, we were discussing the challenges of having renters, and she said that sometimes people are ungrateful for the work you put in and assume that you should just do it. As a not-so-handy-wife, sometimes I think I subconsciously view myself as a renter, expecting immaculate household updates from my husband.

There have definitely been times when I’ve been ungrateful for all the work my husband does around the house. Just as he finishes screwing something back together, I am complaining about the dishwasher not cleaning well. My list of things that aren’t working can seem endless, and most of those tasks fall on him since I haven’t learned how to deal with them.

There are some bible verses that speak deep comfort and assurance to my soul. Then there are some other that don’t speak exactly that to me. As much as comfort and assurance are nice things to feel, it is often in the more challenging words that we grow.

Did you know that Proverbs speaks of multiple situations that would be better than to live with a quarrelsome wife? Here is a list of them. I hope they make you laugh too.

Living in a beautiful house with a quarrelsome wife is better than…

  • Living alone in the corner of an attic (TWICE he uses this comparison)
  • Listening to a constant dripping
  • Living alone in a  desert
  • Listening to the constant drip of a rainy day.

According to the Cambridge Dictionary, a quarrelsome person repeatedly argues with someone.

Often the word quarrelsome is used alongside the words complaining, nagging or irritable.

One translation says “the nagging of a wife goes on and on like the drip, drip, drip of a rainy day.”

Before any of you women get too offended by these verses, don’t worry. There are lots of verses that speak to men. I’m just not talking about those, since these are the ones that have impacted me.

The frustration that comes from a wife that is never satisfies seems to be of an extreme kind. For someone to say they would rather live alone in a desert than with a nagging, quarrelsome, complaining, irritable wife in a nice home, means that this really upsets them! There are not many things that bother me enough to choose that sort of lifestyle over a nice home.

Even as I’m writing this I am getting triggered by things that are driving me crazy involving our move, and for some reason I want to take it out by arguing and complaining. In fact, I have done that in the last thirty minutes! Before I was battling that today, this was on my heart to write about, so God is obviously trying to teach me something through this.

Philippians 2:14-15 and says (speaking to men and women alike)

Do everything without complaining and arguing, so that no one can criticize you. Live clean, innocent lives as children of God, shining like bright lights in a world full of crooked and perverse people.

What a challenge! I know I can’t do this on my own. I can’t be the opposite of quarrelsome without the Lord’s love and grace shining through me.

Father, would you help me in this today.



The Cost of a Dream

Our quest for a house seems to have ended. Well, I realize I’ve said that before, but this time I actually think this one is going to work out. The house we are buying needs significant updates, but we’re excited about the project. This house has definite potential to be a beauty.

While at RONA today shopping for some new flooring, I decided to take a peak at the cabinets, since I am hoping to update our new kitchen eventually. The first kitchen I saw was absolutely gorgeous. I look at the price tag. This is what it said.

“This dream costs: $20,000”

I have to admit, I laughed out loud when I read the term “this dream”. Wow, if only all dreams simply came with a price tag we could work towards. 

I wandered around further. I came to a set of cabinets that weren’t nearly as beautiful, but they were definitely an improvement to the old ones.

“This dream costs: $1045.00”

Oh, that was an affordable dream.

How many people settle on a cheaper dream? How many people miss the Lord’s will for their lives by choosing a path that doesn’t cost them as much? They manage to get a look alike, knock off dream that doesn’t last. The rewards don’t pay out. The benefits end. The treasure is not eternal.

A little more patience, a little more discipline would have brought about the higher quality, more satisfying, reached dream.

I don’t want to look back and see a trail of shattered hopes, forgotten dreams and diluted passion. I want for my family and I to say, as Joshua did, “as for me and my house, we will serve the Lord.” And whatever requests from the Lord come along with serving him, that we would have worked hard to see his will done on earth.

I love this quote from author, speaker and blogger Jon Acuff. My husband and I have referred to this quote often during this latest life transition.

You will work harder at something you love than something you like.
You will work harder than you have ever worked when you start chasing a dream.
You will hustle and grind and sweat and push and pull.
You will get up earlier and go to bed later. But that’s OK.
Joy is an incredible alarm clock. 

Lately I have felt like our dream of a life given fully to the Lord’s call costs a lot. And oh does it ever. No price tag can sum up the worth of a life.

Proverbs 20:23 says

Don’t trap yourself by making a rash promise to God and only later counting the cost.

There is definitely a cost. Once the Lord has spoken something into your heart, you will need to look at the sacrifice involved. Not to let fear enter, but to make sure that you are prepared to follow through.

But don’t begin until you count the cost. For who would begin construction of a building without first calculating the cost to see if there is enough money to finish it? (Luke 14:28)

For me tonight I spend one of my first evenings alone since getting married. I can count on one, maybe two hands how many times we’ve had individual plans after 6 p.m. There are going to be a lot more evenings by myself coming up. That is part of the cost of pursuing our dream.

Jesus isn’t asking us to put our marriage or family on the back burner, but part of the cost has been surrendering the arrangement of our lives. If we can’t spend all our evenings together, we have to find alternate times, since our dream and call from the Lord is also a strong marriage and family.

My dream to pursue writing through blogging and book writing has been simply simmering. At first our new schedule depressed me, but I am realizing that through God’s sovereign plan, he is also opening the doors for this dream to be put on full heat, as he gives me writing times in the evening.

May you have the strength and endurance you need to work towards the most extravagant dream God has given to you. Don’t settle on the cheaper, or the more economical. Go after the most beautifully adorned plan that the Lord has drawn up for you. I guarantee, you will have no regrets.

Road Block

Our house no longer feels like home. Pictures have come off the walls, tables have been dismantled, and many boxes have been packed. Our unknown move date has pushed us to get ready sooner than anticipated.

I don’t know why I get so attached to things like houses. It might have something to do with being a stay at home mom, and a lot of my hours revolve around this place called home. When we thought we had a place to live, I found the move a lot more exciting and a lot less emotional. Lately it’s been the reverse. I’m finding it a lot less exciting and a lot more emotional.

In the midst of trial, we can question whether or not the Lord is leading us into something. When things come together easily we declare that God must really be in this for he’s allowing the pieces to fall together so well. When it gets tough, or we really have to work hard to get something, we second guess the Lord’s leading.

We were reading in 1 Thessalonians 2 and verse eighteen really jumped out and grabbed at my attention.

 We wanted very much to come to you, and I, Paul, tried again and again, but Satan prevented us.

Satan prevented them. Not the Lord. The enemy.

Now I am not saying that the enemy has been preventing details from coming together in our new city. In fact, I’d almost like to keep this point completely separate from our current circumstance since it’s still unknown, but here is what I am learning in the midst of this challenge:

The enemy might be fighting us, but the Lord is definitely for us. When we encounter a road block, it isn’t always because we have taken the wrong street. As we pray to God he will give us the courage to keep going, and the creative solutions around the blockade.

We know that we know that we know we are to move to take on this youth pastor position. We know that we are being led there for “such a time as this”. It might not be all falling easily into place, but character is not built during the easy times. No, the Word says in Romans 5 that it is through our perseverance in the trials that our character is built.

In my last post, I talked about how the Lord is working things out for His glory. When I called our realtor to tell her that some things had fallen through on our end, she said to me “well someone must be up there looking out for you guys, because that house just sold.”

Our testimony is starting to be acknowledged in her eyes. If through all the dropped deals and disappointments someone sees God’s glory so clearly they fall to their knees and accept God’s gift of salvation, it will all be worth it.

sometimes it is the Lord who closes the doors, and other times the enemy is trying to stop us. If you are encountering a road block, and you feel in your heart you are where the Lord has called you, be encouraged that your perseverance through this problem will strengthen your character, and produce confident hope in your salvation. Look for specific ways that you can be giving God the maximum glory through it all.

“So let’s not get tired of doing what is good. At just the right time we will reap a harvest of blessing if we don’t give up.” Galatians 6:9


A Recommitment

Before we moved into this new stage of leaving our city to pursue the ministry call on our hearts, I had written about my renewed commitment to pray for my husband, son and God’s will for our lives. I knew that he was stirring something up within us, and felt an urgency to pray it into existence.

The last two weeks have been such a whirlwind. Sometimes I’ve felt like I can scarcely breathe from the sudden changes, ups and downs. I haven’t stuck to my commitment to prayer, and the enemy has totally been allowed to bring discouragement to my soul.

Often when the Lord brings people into a new season, answering prayers He’s been petitioned for, they leave him to continue finishing off the job on their own. How do I know this? Well it’s in our human nature.

The Israelites were rescued in powerful, awesome ways over and over, and the Lord had to say this to them, regarding their relationship to him during their new season of life:

The houses will be richly stocked with goods you did not produce. You will draw water from cisterns you did not dig, and you will eat from vineyards and olive trees you did not plant. When you have eaten your fill in this land, be careful not to forget the Lord, who rescued you from slavery in the land of Egypt. You must fear the Lord your God and serve him. When you take an oath, you must use only his name.

Deuteronomy 6:11-13 (emphasis mine)

For me right now, I feel like God is saying,

“As you get ready to move to your new city, look for new houses, start new jobs, and make new friends, do not forget me, I am the Lord who prepared you and brought you here.”

The Lord doesn’t simply make an entrance, he paves a way. He sets a course before us. It’s when we try to do things on our own and on our own strength that we get ourselves into trouble.

Last night, my husband and I were pouring over house listings and details, until we were so exhausted and frustrated, we got in an argument and went to bed. We didn’t pray, we didn’t remember the one who was bringing us through this, we tried to do it on our own. We’re pretty brutal at it. When we do it on our own there is really no peace.

God is way better at doing things anyway! He can make a way when there is no way!

I am the Lord, who opened a way through the waters, making a dry path through the sea.

Isaiah 43:16

It’s funny, God totally orchestrated the sale of our house, and we were so amazed at his goodness and faithfulness. And within two days I was getting worried and stressed about the purchase of our new house. Did I so quickly forget the mighty way of the Lord?

So friends, I’m releasing this all yet again. I choose to spend time with the Lord, BEFORE looking online for houses and BEFORE packing. I am going to let the Lord be the one to finish the good work that he has started (Philippians 1:6) and continue in my commitment to prayer.

I leave you with the verse that has been my prayer these last months. May this be so for my family, and for yours.

We ask God to give you complete knowledge of his will and to give you spiritual wisdom and understanding. Then the way you
live will always honor and please the Lord, and your lives will produce every kind of good fruit. All the while, you will grow as you learn to know God better and better.
 We also pray that you will be strengthened with all his glorious power so you will have all the endurance and patience you need. May you be filled with joy, always thanking the Father.

Colossians 1:9-12





To God Be The Glory

Selling our house has been a test of faith. When the deal fell through on our home almost a week ago, and we had to back out of the house we loved, my husband felt God tell him that we were going to get more for our house. My faith was wavering, but he really believed this was the case. As our move date approaches, the butterflies in my stomach start flapping a little harder.

On Sunday we received an offer a few thousand above our last deal, from people that we were excited to sell the house too. We have been praying that the house would be a blessing to a family, and that it would sell at the price that we need, and they need. We have since received a back up offer that would be take effect if the other offer fell through.

This deal isn’t final yet, but I’m seeing a glimpse into what God is doing. I am reminded of a line in the movie The Sound of Music.

In the time of Maria’s greatest anxiety, a motherly nun says to her

“when God closes a door, somewhere he opens a window.”

The timing of this offer was interesting. It was five hours after we lost my lovely little house in our new city because we didn’t have an offer. Part of me was frustrated thinking, could this offer not have come through a little sooner?

I have been reading a book by Max Lucado called “It’s Not About Me” and it talks a lot about how we make our lives all about us, and imagine God is continually working to satisfy us, but that actually God is working everything out for his glory.

I wouldn’t put house hunting in the same category as pain, but you get the idea. This whole thing is really being worked out so that the Lord receives the glory. Yes, God does know what we need, but let’s be honest, probably what I think we need, is not exactly what God thinks we need. He can do the most fantastic balancing act of holding our needs, fulfilling his promises to us, and getting himself maximum glory.

My question to myself has been “am I stealing glory from God or am I giving him the maximum amount of opportunity to show himself awesome and powerful?”

Psalm 115:1 says

Not to us, O Lord, not to us, but to your name goes all the glory for your unfailing love and faithfulness.

It’s not about how well we can wheel and deal, or how quick our realtor is, or how great we are at bartering. I believe the Lord is going to show his greatness to us as a family, and to those around us. It may not come the way that I expect, but I expect that he will come through.

Us receiving an offer for more than the last one was simply:

so all the world from east to west will know there is no other God. I am the Lord, and there is no other. I create the light and make the darkness. I send good times and bad times. I, the Lord, am the one who does these things.” (Isaiah 45:6-7)

Though my soul is still unsettled at times over where and what our new house will be, my prayers have been changing. I’ve been asking God to work this situation out to bring maximum glory to his name, to be the greatest testimony possible to our realtor, and to be the most faith building experience.

Yeah, I realize that’s a dangerous prayer! But since my life should actually be lived to reflect the Lord’s love and to bring glory to his name, finding a house seems like the safest, easiest place to start praying these kinds of prayers.

In the words of the hymn writer, Fanny J. Crosby;

To God be the glory, great things He hath done! So loved He the world that He gave us His Son, who yielded His life our redemption to win, and opened the life-gate that all may go in!


When Congratulations Are Not In Order

Our morning walks and playground times seem to be a little earlier than most of the young families in our area. We generally are the only ones at the park, hanging out with the before work dog walking crowed. I think Caleb secretly wakes up early so he doesn’t miss watching his furry friends run around. He sure gets a thrill from it.

This morning, one of the dogs ran up to play with Caleb, so I asked the owner if the dog was used to kids. He told me that they had a 2 week old baby boy.

I jumped to offer my congratulations and starting jabbering on about how wonderful being a parent was and all the blessings that come with a baby. I stopped halfway through my passionate soliloquy and noticed that the man didn’t seem to be relating.

All the feelings of the first couple weeks with Caleb rushed back to me, the exhaustion and the overwhelming sense of life never being the same. I shut my mouth and stopped my congratulating.

Instead I looked at him and said that when my husband went back to work I cried everyday, not knowing how I was going to get through. I told him transparently that the first six weeks were really hard, but then everything got better all of a sudden.

My dose of honestly refreshed him, and he said that when he gets home and his wife is crying and he doesn’t know what to do, he feels guilty for going to work, but he has to. He was encouraged to know that this is just a stage that will pass by quickly.

The opportunity to validate what that couple was going through was huge. Instead of just rushing on with the blessings on parenting (which are endless to be sure) the Lord had me bring a message of hope. Hope recognizes the challenge and provides that things will get better.

Romans 5:2-5 Through him we have also obtained access by faith into this grace in which we stand, and we rejoice in hope of the glory of God. More than that, we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us

Sometimes congratulations are not in order, but a listening ear, love and understanding are!

I hope you can take the opportunity to encourage a new parent today!



Angry Mama

Over the last few months, I have surprised myself with how angry I have become in certain moments. I would not have described myself as an angry person, but parenting a child whose personality is beginning to blossom has started bringing out some of the worst in me. I can peg it on hormones, life change, exhaustion, and many other things, but the truth is it comes down to sinful handling of my anger.

Today for example, I just about had a full-blown explosion. Our house sale fell through yesterday, and so we started the cycle of showings again this morning. I was trying to get my son and I backed up and out the door by 9 a.m. so our realtor could have an open house. Every thing I cleaned he would pull out, grim his greasy fingers on it and throw it on the floor. He refused to eat his breakfast, and instead crumbled it all up in his hands and through it exponentially farther than ever before, coating my beautiful clean floors in toast dust.

As we’re about to leave I’m trying to find his sandals, and I’m completely over heated from running around our house which is sitting at about 28 degrees. I’m on the brink of tears from frustration, and I look in the fridge to get the sandwich that was in there for me to take with us. I couldn’t find it. My husband took it to work (which I do not blame him for, since I had it sitting where I would usually have his), and I was still trying to find this ridiculous sandal so I could let Caleb get his energy out at the playground before making him nap in the car.

Let’s just say things did not end well. After yelling at the air, sending a snappy text to my husband about the sandwich, I picked up my shoeless child, slammed the door and stomped out to the car. We pulled away, just to turn around and come back since I forgot my coffee.

Why do I get so angry? How can I be so furious with the ones I love the most, when in reality they haven’t done anything?

This is not earth shattering stuff. Every single person has days like this, where frustrating little things happen. They should not make or break your day.

Thankfully, after a little time in the car cooling down, apologizing to my husband, and cuddling my son, I had the courage to ask God to forgive me for my outbursts.

Honestly, I hate doing that. I am so embarrassed in front of the Lord, even though he is the one who sees the whole thing, and even worse than just seeing it, he hears my inmost thoughts! I cannot hide from him.

Psalm 139:7 says

I can never escape from your Spirit! I can never get away from your presence!

What a gloriously wonderful, yes dauntingly terrifying statement. I can never escape his love, mercy and forgiveness, yet I can never hide my sin from this holy and awesome God.

Today’s Focus on the Family broadcast ended up being all about helping mom’s deal with anger. Turns out I’m not alone! In fact, toddlers and teens are said to be the most aggravating two groups of kids for moms!

I recognized today that I need to start confronting how I handle my anger and frustrations head on. God’s timing is so good. He brings conviction to our hearts, and then offers an avenue of hope and healing.

I’m not proud of my actions lately, but I hope my transparency can be related to. I’m going to be getting my hands on the book “She’s gonna blow!” by Julie Barnhill (today’s guest on Focus on the Family) and gain some wise counsel on this subject.

Parenting has already been way more challenging than I could have imagined, and I hope to stay aware of red flags that I’m seeing in myself now, so that my husband and kids don’t have to live with the current me forever!

May I be ever on the path towards this spirit filled description:

But the Holy Spirit produces this kind of fruit in our lives: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control.

Galatians 5:22-23


God IS Good

When we announced that our house had conditionally sold and that we had then bought a house conditionally, based on our house selling, we were overwhelmed with how good God is. Many people said to me “Wow, God is good.”

Today the deal on our house fell through. Something unexpected to do with their finances, which then in turn impacts us buying our new house. Tomorrow we go back to the routine of showings, open houses and uncertainty. I was so thankful to be done with having to find things for Caleb and I to do, while managing to keep the house spotless.

One the disappointment calmed down and reality set in, I had many thoughts in my mind.

“Well this is embarrassing, everyone said God was so good to us and now it’s all fallen through!”

Yikes, did my thoughts just imply that the Lord’s goodness isn’t at work anymore? 

There are many factors that come into play here, and we don’t know what the outcome will be. I do know that God in his divine goodness holds what is going on. He knows when we need to be moved, he knows the house we need to live in, and he knows how much we need to make off our house.

The bible speaks freely about God’s soveignty and goodness. Psalm 31:19 says

How great is the goodness you have stored up for those who fear you. You lavish it on those who come to you for protection, blessing them before the watching world.

This verse brings great peace to me heart. We daily come to the Lord for protection, and I believe that we are walking in his will. His goodness will come forth, as a testimony to the watching world.

I just am not sure what this testimony is going to look like yet. But I know that somehow God is going to get glory, and I am going to learn to delare the goodness of the Lord regardless of circumstance.

If our house sells, God is good. If another deal falls through, God is good. If I am healthy, God is good. If I am sick, God is still good. If I live in the house that I want, God is good. If I live in my second, third, or fourth choice house, God is good.

I am so thankful for an unchanging, constant, permanent, unmoving, never sleeping God in the midst of my somewhat liquid life!


Prayers regarding our house would be appreciated. GOD IS GOOD!!!