From Husband to Daddy

I can’t imagine what kind of love I would have for my husband if we had not become parents. Watching Andrew become a dad has been the most amazing thing I could have ever imagined. From the moment he first laid eyes on Caleb, he has not been the same person. His heart of compassion, love and mercy has been widened immensely. His commitment to help, love and protect me has visibly increased. He has spent many hours rescuing me from my tears and exhaustion as I’ve become a mom.

Caleb has been in a stage where he only wants dad. If daddy walks in the room and I’m holding him, he’ll leap from my arms. If Caleb gets hurt, it’s daddy he wants! I have to admit, this has definitely hurt me at times. I feel like Caleb’s cuddles are so limited that I want to selfishly soak them up.

However, over the last few days I have just overwhelmed with how blessed I am to have a husband who is so passionate about being a dad and so committed to showing love and affection to his child.

Transition seems to be something we are in a lot, and I know that it has really caused us to grow together and push deeper in our relationship.

As a teen, I think I viewed babies as fun accessories. You see a mom with a fashionably dressed baby on her hip, or in her expensive stroller and it looks like a lot of fun. Neither mom nor baby looks very fabulous or fashionable going through the feed/change routine at 2 a.m. Having a supportive, loving and HELPFUL husband in those moments can weld together the deepest bonds.

I hear a lot of couples say they plan on waiting a few years before having children, and I realize the reasons behind that, but I can honestly say that having a baby so soon into our marriage was the greatest thing for us. It forced us to carve out time for one another, to face our issues head on and definitely made us grow up quickly. I’m thankful we didn’t get used to two incomes for long. Andrew has said over and over that he personally would not have been ready for pastoral ministry if we didn’t have Caleb.

I love this verse that talks about having children young.

Behold, children are a heritage from the Lord, the fruit of the womb a reward. Like arrows in the hand of a warrior are the children of one’s youth. Blessed is the man who fills his quiver with them!

Psalm 127:3-4 (emphasis mine)

I looked up how many arrows a quiver can hold, and I could not find a definite number, but let me tell you its a lot of arrows! As the one birthing these little blessings, I’m not sure I want to have a “quiverfull”, but I certainly want to acknowledge the Lord’s purpose in giving children to a young couple, and the beauty and blessing that it holds.

I know some couples are unable to have any children, and my heart does grieve with them. That is another reason why I find it heartbreaking when I hear someone speak negatively about “accidentally” having a child right away.

Whether through having more children, and doing other life transitions together, I’m excited for the challenges that we get to work through together. I can’t fathom the love I will have in my heart for my husband years from now when all our children are grown and we have walked through so much together.

The Lord’s design for marriage is so good! It is such a picture of our relationship with Jesus. I have walked through so much with the Lord and we have made it through many life transitions, heart breaks and triumphs. His love and faithfulness has been proved to me over and over. I know I cannot ever turn my back on Jesus. My life is completely intertwined with his.

The Lord said the most incredible statement to us, through all of our disobedience, betrayal and shortcomings. It has become my softly spoken, tear filled declarative phrase to the Lord, to my husband and to my son.
“I will never leave you, I will never forsake you.” (Hebrews 13:5).


May the Lord open your heart and allow every day life to cultivate deep love and appreciation for those around you!



Expect a Miracle

My son has finally slept through the first night in a long time, and of course I’ve been tossing and turning a lot, finally getting out of bed. Unfortunately, sleep isn’t solely tied to him. Yesterday we received an offer on our house, and we found a house that we really like in our new city.

It feels like so much to coordinate in a small amount of time (the offer on our home was for an August 1st possession). While questions swirl around in my mind, I know that this offer could very well fall through. I also know that we could make an offer on the house that I am honestly in love with (I tried to not fall in love with it too early, but to no avail) and it could fall through.

We are truly in a place where God has this in his hands. That should make me feel completely safe! However, control is something that I’ve been working on in my own life. Here are some of the amazing little things God has been doing over the last few days, partially to encourage you, but mostly for me to see that his hand is truly at work.

My husband and I were doing our evening bible reading, and we came across this verse in Proverbs 11:28.

Trust in your money and down you go! But the godly flourish like leaves in spring.

After we read that, my husbands phone went off and reminded him of the verse he had put in there to meditate on.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Proverbs 3:5

The night before we went house hunting, I had a dream that I was standing in a field praying to the Lord, and glowing white hands of God burst through the clouds from heaven and spoke that he had us in his hands, that we were called to this new place, and he would take care of us.

So with this powerful image and these verses in mind, we listed our home and headed off to look for a new one.

While standing in the kitchen of the house I fell in love with, I know finances and details were in the forefront of both our minds. I looked up and saw this sign.

After looking at houses, we went for supper, pouring over the sheets of house details, and anxiously awaiting the phone call regarding the offer our house was to receive.

We paid for our meal and walked out to find $20.00 laying on the ground. We tried to find who dropped it, but everyone in the restaurant told us it was ours to keep. It wasn’t a huge thing, but it was like God said “supper’s on me”.

Returning home, we found two unexpected cheques waiting for us.

Expect a miracle. Expect that when you walk in the will of God he WILL direct your path. Expect that he will provide and take care of you even when you’re taking a step of faith.

So I’m going to take a deep breath, thank God for these miracles so far, release today’s anxieties and expect that he is going to come through on our behalf.

Wow, my God is truly so good.