Tomorrow my husband goes to the office for the first time, while baby bear and I are home by ourselves for the first time here in this new house.
It’s funny how as a stay at home mom, so much changes, yet nothing changes. We move to a new city, new house, new neighborhood, new stores, new everything, yet we still sleep, eat, play, cook, clean, repeat. Only now without the former securities we once had; we don’t know our way around, we can’t just call up a friend, and neither of us yet really feel at home in the house fully. It’s just so different.
We can be brave to a point, until we truly look the bundle of fears in the face and then we rarely can stand on our own. At that point the only option is to hand all the fears to God, or to fall apart.
Today I’ve been more on the fall apart end. Loneliness and uncertainty are trying to crowd out my joy and excitement.
The Lord is my strength and shield.
I trust him with all my heart.
He helps me, and my heart is filled with joy.
I burst out in songs of thanksgiving.
You never truly realize the amazing friends and family you were surrounded with until they are no longer at your beck and call.
Whatever challenge your walking through, and whatever discouragement is stealing your heart, I hope you can have the courage to find your strength in the Lord.
It is often in our times of loneliness that he speaks to us. Sometimes we have to break off from our comforts so that he can finally be the first love of our soul. It isn’t good for us to stay in a place of loneliness, but for a time it can allow us to know God better.
I, of course, look forward to making new friends and building a life here, but in the mean time, I hope can deepen my friendship with Christ, a friendship that I don’t always put as my number one priority.