Not to sound like a broken record, but there are days where this motherhood life can get discouraging. I know, I know, I talk about this too much. But let’s be honest, this is where I’m at. Day in. Day out.
I’ve been battling with this feeling of being “stuck” in my body. Did you experience this when pregnant? My husband has pointed out to me that I often say I feel stuck, whether it be where I’m at emotionally, in physical situation or relationships. But there is nothing like feeling stuck in your own skin.
Not being able to escape your growing belly, achy back, or moving baby for one moment sometimes overwhelms me. There is no “honey, I’m tired tonight, you carry the baby”, or “I really need an afternoon off, Grandma will you hold this growing child?”
While wrestling without a lot of discouraging thoughts (and let’s face it – hormones) I was reading in Romans 4, where Paul talks about the faith of Abraham.
It is during the challenging days of caring for or carrying babies that I can lose focus on the big picture. These are the days where the land God has promised me that I will conquer, is no where in sight. The vision is dead, the well seems dry.
I was deeply challenged by the beginning words in Romans 4:18
“Even when there was no reason for hope, Abraham kept hoping”
God promised that Abraham and his wife would have a son, even though they were 100 years old and she was labeled barren! And here is the INCREDIBLE part of Abraham’s faith: as time went on, even though he couldn’t see anything happening, his faith grew because he believed he was daily closer to seeing God’s promises fulfilled.
Abraham never wavered in believing God’s promise. In fact, his faith grew stronger, and in this he brought glory to God. He was fully convinced that God is able to do whatever he promises. And because of Abraham’s faith, God counted him as righteous.
Having assurance that the Lord our God does what he says he will do, can increase my faith daily regardless of circumstance.
Even if the day seems to have been completely unproductive and I basically just “survived” to the end, I am one day closer to God’s promises.
When I should be out of hope, I can keep hoping.
Lord Jesus, may we keep hoping and clinging to your promises, no matter what we can or cannot see. Every day takes us closer to you. Strengthen our faith, and may it bring glory to you, as Abraham’s did!