His World

urlThere is a little song that my son sings while he plays by himself. Almost every single time he is content in his alone play, he is quietly or loudly singing “Mommy, daddy, daddy and mommy. Mommy and daddy, daddy mommy”.

This arrangement of our names is recited to a cute little tune as he stacks blocks, builds with duplo, races cars around and pulls stuffed animals in a wagon.

There is safety in us.

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This is obviously just for a time, but I felt like my eyes were opened to how important my marriage is to my children. Caleb is simply at the age where he will let his infatuation and adoration for us be known.

There will come a day when he no longer sings about us everyday, but his life would not be the same if the security of his mom and dad loving each other fell apart.

While Caleb isn’t always a fan of us leaving him with a babysitter or a family member, we need to make our relationship a priority, not simply for ourselves, but for the security of his heart.

Our church has just finished a three-week series on marriage, and was it ever powerful. Each week I sat there nearly weeping at the end over the stories, insight and wisdom that was shared. We felt challenged and strengthened at the same time.

A statistic that was shared during these marriage messages was shocking. A study done by an affiliate of the Married For Life Course, (a program I’ve talked about before that my husband and I took) found that when couples prayed together, their chance of divorce went from 1 in 3, to 1 in 1,142.

That is simply unbelievable!

Learning to pray together has been truly that – a learning experience. There haven’t been many days that we’ve missed throughout our marriage so far, and the ones that have been missed usually stem back to me being angry about something and not being able to look past it that day.

When my stubborn heart gets in the way of us praying together, I hope I remember this statistic, but also that I hear that little song in my head.

“Mommy, daddy, daddy and mommy. Mommy and daddy, daddy mommy”.

The strength of our marriage is vital to the security of my baby’s world.

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One foot in front of the other…

Throughout this pregnancy, we’ve hit bumps in the road where my husband and I ask each other if I’m battling some kind of pregnancy related depression. Every time we evaluate where I’m at, we come to the conclusion that I’m purely suffering from tired/uncomfortableness that is aggravated by raising a busy toddler that makes me “feel” at breaking point.

Usually a cry session, a trip out of the house or an extra nap does a lot to cure the heartache.

It seems like these are the times where it’s hardest to write. My personal deserts don’t seem like they have much to offer.

What God is showing me seems to be simply the beauty of trusting Him enough to keep putting one foot in front of the other when I don’t feel like I have the strength to do it. But that’s not necessarily an encouraging message.

Truthfully, the majority of the time I feel pretty good. I didn’t realize how much I have been growing as a person over the last seven months. In the middle of growing pains, they simply feel painful. It took me going to back to our home city and connecting with friends to realize all that I’ve worked through.

It’s encouraging to have those moments of recognized growth. They can be the weapon in your hand to beat down the discouragement that tries to come.

Whatever you’re walking through, take a moment to look back and see how far you’ve come. What are you handling now that you didn’t think you could have before?

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May you be blessed in all your struggles today. They are what is shaping your character.

We can rejoice, too, when we run into problems and trials, for we know that they help us develop endurance. And endurance develops strength of character, and character strengthens our confident hope of salvation. And this hope will not lead to disappointment. For we know how dearly God loves us, because he has given us the Holy Spirit to fill our hearts with his love.

Romans 5:3-5

 

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Eyes of Forgiveness

Walking a road of forgiveness can be like walking through a valley. You climb the top of one hill, only to discover there is another deep incline to conquer.

One day you think you have released someone, and the next day you seem to be dealing with more anger and bitterness than in the first place.

Forgiving someone and asking God to forgive you for judging them, is one of the single most important lessons that I have learned in my adult life so far. I used to think forgiveness was just a nice thing we are supposed to do. I had no idea how key it would be to my personal freedom.printables

And at the same time, receiving forgiveness for my judgement of others is key to breaking the cycle of a critical spirit. Not only that, but the bible says that in the same way we judge others, we too will be judged.

Do not judge others, and you will not be judged. For you will be treated as you treat others. The standard you use in judging is the standard by which you will be judged.

Matthew 7:1-2

Yikes. I do not want to live under that kind of judgement!

But what do you do when you can’t seem to escape the sins of someone else? When you try to forgive, but you can’t seem to forget the long list of offences they leave at your feet?

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This verse in Psalm 25 seemed to leap off the page at me. The cry of the writer’s heart was not to be remembered for the way he was, but to be seen with the eyes of God’s unfailing love.

This has become a prayer for me in terms of my spouse, family member, friend or anyone I need eyes of forgiveness for.

Lord, let me not see them in their sin, give me eyes to see them in the light of your unfailing love.  Show me your mercy toward them.

This prayer may be repeated many times until you start to see your own heart change. We all want unfailing love extended to us, but the gift of unfailing love is the hardest to give. Let the Lord change your heart.

 

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Last Weekend

Hello everyone, yes I am still alive. I was on a great blogging role, than everything went crazy for a week! I’d appreciate some prayers though. I am having some pregnancy related back problems and starting to feel like the end is near (although it’s still 9-ish weeks away). Strength, health, perseverance and more strength would be great!

Anyway, I wanted to give a little update on how facing one of my fears went. I wrote about some things I was going to have to do that I didn’t want to in 2013. You can read about it here.

My husband went on his first youth retreat without us this past weekend. I had never spent the weekend alone with just my son, and I had also never been away from my husband since we’d been married (except for one night, that was kind of an emergency situation, so I didn’t prepare for it).

Before Andrew went away, my 20-month old was trying on all his snowboard gear, trying desperately to convince dad that we should be going too. photo

Our first night went by well. I had heard about a play time for toddlers at a local community centre on Saturday. To some of you this will not make any sense, but I was so nervous to go. I really knew nothing about it. I didn’t know what type of people would be there, how many or if the play time was suitable for my son.

I hummed and hawed about going, and almost didn’t, then last-minute decided I needed to just go check it out. I hate to admit it, but I really feel “safe” within the confines of church programs, and this being a non-church event had me intimidated.

I faced my fear of a new situation, and did we ever had a great time! Caleb went crazy when we walked in and saw a big, clean, well-organized room filled with every type of fun toy he could imagine. It was hard to leave.

It was a great challenge for me as well, since I got to meet some other moms apart from a Christian environment. There was actually room to step out and share my faith. Nothing really came of this time, but I look forward to going again in the future, building relationships and pushing myself beyond my comfort zone.

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Joy definitely strengthened me to get through the weekend without my husband as I tackled obstacles that previously held me in fear. It’s certainly good practice to do something that scares you, just to prove to yourself you can.

I hope I don’t have to do many nights alone over this year, but I know that God gives the grace I need to handle it!

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And I really fell more in love with my little guy too! He was a fun date! We even bought him a new little puppy that he is completely infatuated with!

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Just A Moment


We don’t always have a lot of time. Life can suck our passion and fervour for the Lord right out of us.

It seems that in one moment of trouble, we can be tempted to throw away our trust in God, when he has proved himself so faithful.

I was listening to the song “Here With Me” by MercyMe, and in a moment I felt the Holy Spirit enter my house in power. The words hit me so strong.

“I long for you embrace, every single day.”longforembrace

The reality of my need to feel the love of my Heavenly Father every single day was suddenly so strong. My strength literally is taken from my body if I am not having moments of intimate worship with Him.

That’s the key word. Moments.

I know as moms the day can fly by and between a dried, squished banana that is laying abandoned on the floor, the toilet that somehow needs to be scrubbed again, and the mountain of laundry that is never, ever going to disappear, worship can seem impossible.

But this is what I’m learning:

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Sometimes I may feel like I’m sacrificing my precious alone time by choosing to read my bible, pray or worship Him, for a moment. But this is where we receive our happiness, joy and the guiding light of his presence.

Can you take just a moment? Listen to this song and invite the Holy Spirit to fill your house. You can do this with your kids. My 20 month old can get lost in worship with his hands raised to God. They learn so much from watching us worship without being insecure.

These moments with the Lord can become key parts to your daily routine.

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