There are definitely times when I replace what I should be holding on to for strength. It could be coffee (get me through this tough morning), food (emotional eating), or even my husband (when Andrew gets home, I am so done, he can handle everything).
The last one really became clear after baby girl came. When things were a mess I looked to my husband to rescue me. That worked for a bit, until he was getting burnt out.
I’m probably the only wife to do this (haha), but somehow I think I’m entitled to have a bad day more than my husband because I’m the one at home with the kids. NO ONE in our house has had a worse day than mom. Ever.
God took me back to giving birth to Amayah. That was the first time the concept of having a “power verse” became so real to me.
After I had my membranes stripped, I wrote this blog post, where I shared a verse God gave me to cling to through the pain of childbirth.
For our present troubles are small and won’t last very long. Yet they produce for us a glory that vastly outweighs them and will last forever! So we don’t look at the troubles we can see now; rather, we fix our gaze on things that cannot be seen. For the things we see now will soon be gone, but the things we cannot see will last forever.
2 Corinthians 4:17-18
Throughout labour I repeated this verse to myself over and over and over and over.
When pain would get intense I would scream inside myself (because I am actually a fairly quiet labourer) that this baby was an eternal blessing and this pain WOULD NOT LAST FOREVER!
I can’t describe the focus it brought me, fixing my gaze on what was unseen at that time, and removing myself from what was simply felt.
Fast forward to now, I needed a new power verse to get me through the tough days. The “oh my gosh how on earth is there sand all over the floor which is now turning to mud thanks to the toppled Brita jug, and AHHHHHHH get the poop out of your hands” days that push me too close to the edge.
How do I stop dumping all my negative emotions, stress and anxiety on my husband?
This is what God gave me.
As for me, I look to the Lord for help. I wait confidently for God to save me, and my God will certainly hear me.
So this is my new “scream it inside me” verse and maybe when I’m really close to snapping, “yell it out loud” verse to stop me calling my husband to rudely ask him why we ever had to have any children and make him promise right then and there we won’t have any more.
This is the “hold on to it and don’t let go” verse that God will use to take me beyond emotions.
It’s on my phone screen, beside my sink and in my brain. I look to the Lord to help and in those moments I KNOW that he WILL save me. He hears.
And he hears you too.
What’s your power verse?