Pause & Look Back

Last year I went to the women’s ministry kick-off at our church, with hardly any desire to go, forcing myself to try to meet some people. I didn’t want to show up alone, so I asked my sister to come with me. Last minute she backed out.

Sounds silly, but us as women can be insecure about things like showing up to events alone, especially showing up to one where you don’t really know anyone.

We had just moved to our new city and started our new life as a pastor’s family. I wasn’t sure what people really expected of me. I didn’t even know what I expected of myself.

I showed up a little late, slid into the back row, then joined the visiting time hardly leaving a tiny section of the foyer.

Intimidation was not something I was familiar with after having been extremely connected at our last church. I was frustrated, knowing this wasn’t me.

For the first time in a long while I felt shy.

Last night was the women’s ministry kick-off again. I couldn’t believe a whole year had passed since my encounter with my shy-self.

I was late again (thanks to a baby who didn’t want to fall asleep), but this time showed up with a friend and knew almost everyone there. I floated around talking to different people, enjoying some really encouraging conversations.

After I left I was so overcome with God’s faithfulness to me. In one year I went from knowing basically no one, to being able to be completely myself with everyone there.

When something is new or challenging it’s so easy to get caught up in the moment and be overwhelmed with fear or intimidation. God’s heart is for us to connect and have relationship. He set this all up for me.

Sometimes I am in awe of the different women I have got to know over this year. I have grown so much from meeting and sharing my life with them.

These landmark times throughout the year are so great to pause and reflect on what God has done. It could be a new school year, an event kick off or a birthday – just something that throws you back to the year before. Pause

Pause for a moment. Where were you one year ago?

It may have been a year of challenges, but no matter what you’ll be able to see glimpse of God’s faithfulness. Thank him for it, or the moment of realization might just float by.

He remembered us in our weakness.
His faithful love endures forever.
He saved us from our enemies.
His faithful love endures forever.
He gives food to every living thing.
His faithful love endures forever.
Give thanks to the God of heaven.
His faithful love endures forever.

Psalm 136:23-26

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