I love the West Coast. My childhood years were spent around Vancouver Island and Vancouver. We lived at the oceans. We gazed at the mountains. We explored the forests.
Needless to say, I love every opportunity I get to leave my (much-loved) prairies and head out west.
June 2012 was no exception. My husband and I decided that we needed to be at a conference in Langley, BC and started driving out with our 13 month old.
The first day we made it from Regina to Swift Current. That drive is about 3 hours, a pathetic distance compared to what we expected.
Caleb screamed, and screamed, and screamed. Then when we had him finally settled, he started screaming more.
We had no idea what was going on.
After stopping for the night, we started driving on, hoping for a better day. Again, he screamed and screamed, and screamed.
We were beside ourselves. Do we turn around and go home? Are we missing what’s wrong? Is the enemy trying to stop us from getting to the conference?
After adjusting his car seat hoping that it would help him be more comfortable, we kept driving.
It got a little better, but again he screamed a significant amount more than he ever had in a vehicle.
We made some fun pit stops.
I remember this extremely weird feeling of two opposite emotions.
1. I was so completely overwhelmed with my son and wanted to go home so terrible bad. I felt trapped in the mountains.
2. I was blown away by the absolutely beauty of the mountains and I wanted to soak up every single moment and breathe in every ounce of oxygen filled air. I didn’t want to leave.
Since then, I have had this feeling a lot. One circumstance is so overwhelming that I can’t see past it, and it’s stealing joy from every other area.
And at the same time, I am thrilled with a majority of life.
This song has been speaking to me about focusing on what God is doing in the big picture, rather than what’s overwhelming me in the moment.
The line that really speaks to me goes:
“Give me grace to see beyond this moment here. To believe that there is nothing left to fear. And that you alone are high above it all. For you my God are greater still.”
Whatever your “double circumstance” is, the good, the bad, the really amazing and the absolutely terrible, my prayer for you is that you will taste and see the greatness of our God and experience his power to rise above what’s stealing your joy.
I pray that your hearts will be flooded with light so that you can understand the confident hope he has given to those he called—his holy people who are his rich and glorious inheritance. I also pray that you will understand the incredible greatness of God’s power for us who believe him. This is the same mighty power that raised Christ from the dead and seated him in the place of honor at God’s right hand in the heavenly realms.
(We treasured every quiet moment on that trip.)