This week was the most challenging so far with three kids. No one ever seemed happy. I gave one kid attention, and the others screamed, cried or acted out in ways that mostly involved poop and pee.
My head hurt quite regularly as the whining seemed to never stop. I’ve felt guilty that I don’t have the same time to spend “bonding” with my new baby like I did with my others.
I don’t need anyone to remind me that it’s all still new for the kids and they’re adjusting to the baby. I know. But honestly, I’m a little frustrated.
The combination of both my husband and I have to take trips out-of-town on two different days, all the other pieces of our schedule and the kids behaviour, left me pretty worn out by the time I made it to this afternoon.
I was so thankful that I managed to get two kids to sleep at the same time, and the other had a (too long) session in front of the TV while I took a nap.
I remember from having my second baby, that there are very few “sleep when baby sleeps” moments with other kids in the house.
This is where relying on God’s strength instead of my own strength has really been displayed.
While I was feeling overwhelmed one afternoon trying to get laundry done, the two younger kids to nap and feeling really emotional and discouraged about my parenting skills, another song popped into my head.
The Lord has been so good at meeting me exactly where I am at. I haven’t spent as much time in the Word or in prayer, and yet He continues to speak and encourage me in the middle of my chaos.
Jenn Johnson’s song “God I look to you” holds words that has been speaking peace to my soul for the last 48 hours. This song doubly encourages me because Jenn is a mom to three kids, a pastor and a worship leader, who obviously fights the same battles I do.
God I look to You, I won’t be overwhelmed
Give me vision to see things like You do
God I look to You; You’re where my help comes from
Give me wisdom; You know just what to do
I have felt overwhelmed, but unnecessarily. This became my constant prayer and declaration.
Anyone and anything in the natural and the spiritual can hear this declaration. I won’t be overwhelmed because I’m looking to my God for direction.
I know that He will give me the wisdom I need for parenting, for rest, for life. He knows just what to do.
May the Lord meet you exactly where you are today, and show you just what you need to do to fight what is trying to overwhelm you and hold you back from living in the fullness of joy that our Jesus came to bring us.
God we look to You.