The third baby has been hard on my body. And I’ve been hard on myself.
In all honesty, I’ve been really struggling with feeling extremely frustrated with my weight, extra skin, and other things I don’t like about myself since giving birth one last time.
I’ve felt a little ripped off. I didn’t gain any extra weight with Eli, so I thought I’d be “back to normal” quickly.
So not true.
I have struggled with gaining weight after baby like I never have before. Maybe it was having a newborn at Christmas. Maybe it was not having a spring baby (I used to walk so much when the others were new babies).
Whatever it is, I’ve been discouraged to say the least.
One of my brave things for the year has been to accurately look at my fitness goals, and not beat myself up, but be realistic and take steps forward.
Andrew has taught many times to just ask yourself if you’re doing more than you used to. Who cares if you’re doing enough, but are you doing more than you have been? Are you making progress?
So last night, I was bravely speed walking in -30 weather, have a conversation with myself and the Lord.
I was mulling over the concept of “loving our bodies.”
I haven’t been feeling much love toward my body lately.
So the Lord flipped it for me. He asked “does your body love you?”
Well what does that mean? I asked.
Is your body feeling love from you in terms of choices your making? Even if you aren’t doing everything you want to, are you making progress?
I found this to be really encouraging. This challenged the mental side of me. My body wants to be cared for by the side of me that nourishes, strengthens and encourages myself.
I need to treat my body in such a way that it would be appreciative of my decisions.
I don’t know if this will make sense to anyone else, but I feel at peace in changing my focus. I can be zoned in on making sure that my body is feeling the love, rather than if I’m happy with how I’m looking.
If I care for my body in that tender way, hopefully the results I want will come, in time, and with a healthy mind!
Do you not know that your body is the temple (the very sanctuary) of the Holy Spirit Who lives within you, Whom you have received [as a Gift] from God? You are not your own, You were bought with a price [purchased with a preciousness and paid for, made His own]. So then, honor God and bring glory to Him in your body.
1 Corinthians 6:19-20 (AMP)