My commitment to do each brave thing that Lord commissioned me to do in 2015 led me to getting up before my children. They have faithfully woke up between 6:45 and 7 a.m their whole lives.
I set my alarm for 6 a.m. That first week was incredible. Regardless of what kind of night I had with the kids, I was up at 6 a.m. and had 45 minutes of alone time with Jesus, drank some coffee and even prayed with Andrew.
I felt like I had a new lease on life.
Then day five.
I heard someone crying and looked at my phone. 5:55 a.m.
Noooo! I felt panicked. “I cannot lose this time.” I thought.
I was angry and frustrated. I tried to get the child back to sleep and that only woke up the whole house.
This pattern started on for a months. Pretty much from January to beginning of April. Rarely did I get a moment in the morning to myself. Sometimes just as my alarm was going off, or just as I picked up my bible, a child would cry.
I was so extremely frustrated. I was following through on what I felt God tell me to do, and it was helping me so much. God was revealing an incredible amount to me in the Word.
So a few weeks ago I decided to get even more brave and set my alarm for 5:30 a.m.
There was no way that they would wake up before 5:30.
5:22 a.m. a kid starts crying.
“I can’t believe. I will not believe this!” I yelled in frustration to my sleeping husband. “This just cannot be happening.”
Well it was happening, and for a week someone would wake up before or as my alarm for 5:30 a.m. was going off.
I have gone back to 6 a.m. for now and still this morning the crying began just moments before my alarm.
Why am I telling you this?
I want to be real with you that doing what God asks us to do isn’t always easy. It can be really hard. There can be a lot of obstacles.
I am currently seeking the Lord on the answer to this situation. I know that Jesus is pulling my heart toward him and that time with him in the morning is so precious, and I know that enemy doesn’t want me to start out on the right foot.
So I wait on the Lord for breakthrough. I declare that the enemy has been put under my feet and that no weapon formed against me or my family will prosper.
I say that I will have my Psalm 23 moment, resting by still waters and having my soul restored.
I will continue to be brave, even when it feels like it’s the hardest thing to do.
Be brave, dear one. Don’t stop now.
