Let Me Catch My Breath

My commitment to do each brave thing that Lord commissioned me to do in 2015 led me to getting up before my children. They have faithfully woke up between 6:45 and 7 a.m their whole lives.

I set my alarm for 6 a.m. That first week was incredible. Regardless of what kind of night I had with the kids, I was up at 6 a.m. and had 45 minutes of alone time with Jesus, drank some coffee and even prayed with Andrew.

I felt like I had a new lease on life.

Then day five.

I heard someone crying and looked at my phone. 5:55 a.m.

Noooo! I felt panicked. “I cannot lose this time.” I thought.

I was angry and frustrated. I tried to get the child back to sleep and that only woke up the whole house.

This pattern started on for a months. Pretty much from January to beginning of April. Rarely did I get a moment in the morning to myself. Sometimes just as my alarm was going off, or just as I picked up my bible, a child would cry.

I was so extremely frustrated. I was following through on what I felt God tell me to do, and it was helping me so much. God was revealing an incredible amount to me in the Word.

So a few weeks ago I decided to get even more brave and set my alarm for 5:30 a.m.

There was no way that they would wake up before 5:30.

5:22 a.m. a kid starts crying.

“I can’t believe. I will not believe this!” I yelled in frustration to my sleeping husband. “This just cannot be happening.”

Well it was happening, and for a week someone would wake up before or as my alarm for 5:30 a.m. was going off.

I have gone back to 6 a.m. for now and still this morning the crying began just moments before my alarm.

Why am I telling you this?

I want to be real with you that doing what God asks us to do isn’t always easy. It can be really hard. There can be a lot of obstacles.

I am currently seeking the Lord on the answer to this situation. I know that Jesus is pulling my heart toward him and that time with him in the morning is so precious, and I know that enemy doesn’t want me to start out on the right foot.

So I wait on the Lord for breakthrough. I declare that the enemy has been put under my feet and that no weapon formed against me or my family will prosper.

I say that I will have my Psalm 23 moment, resting by still waters and having my soul restored.

I will continue to be brave, even when it feels like it’s the hardest thing to do.

Be brave, dear one. Don’t stop now.


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