There are so many great things I use my phone for. I hardly have to pick up a pen or write on a piece of paper.
I can write my grocery list on my convenient Google Keep app, and still have the fulfillment of checking off items. I also can write myself a little note about a blog idea no matter where I am.
I can open up my Google Calendar, add some events to our schedule and even have it sync to my husbands phone.
I love it. It’s so…convenient.
Sometimes it’s so awesome and easy that I notice my eyes are starting to get a little sore from looking at the screen, and I realize that some little people are wandering around my house doing bad things trying to get my attention.
Then there is my oldest. He is so desperate to be grown up. He reminds me of someone.
Oh yeah. Me as a kid.
We had a huge catastrophe the other day because he would not let go of this broken iPod touch we use for white noise in the kid’s bedroom.
I finally had to forcefully take it from him because he was having too much screen time.
The meltdown was of mammoth proportions.
When he was finally calm enough to tell me what was going on he said “I can’t be a man if I don’t have a phone.”
When I probed him further he said “you and dad are always on your phones. It’s what adults do. I can’t be a grown up if you don’t let me have a phone.”
His pain was so deep and so real.
Caleb longs to be respected as a man, and I get that.
I remember the feeling of not being allowed to wear make up, and believing I wasn’t a woman if I didn’t have this freedom.
This interaction has had me really questioning whether all the apps on my phone are worth the emotional pain to my kids.
The truth is, I’m not always wasting time on it. There are some really good, important things that I’ve been working on.
But all my four year old sees is mom staring at her phone.
I’ve decided that for now, it isn’t worth my son’s angst over whether he is really a man or not and I’m doing what I can to cut my phone usage down and buying a paper planner!
Sometimes we have to take a less convenient path to save someone else from confusion and pain.
I am excited because I actually love writing out my days and I feel much more organized when I am organized on paper and HOPEFULLY it buys us a little more time to deal with the media monster that’s trying to rear it’s head!
This boy loves hands on activities. If I can keep up with crafts, he will forget about screen time!