Try and fail. Try and fail. Get up, try again, and fail.
Don’t do it on your own strength, people would tell me.
What the heck does that mean? I bitterly asked inside.
Try and fail. Try, try, try. Fail.
Grace. A back door for evil doers? A quick way to get out of the punishment they should deserve?
Kind of. Free, undeserved favour. A gift, beyond what any can imagine.
I’ve tried the cycle of try and fail.
I’ve tried so much and failed so much I wanted to give up, but I realized that would just be failing again.
I tried to access God’s power, but struggled to understand what it looked like to have him rule over my desires.
I read Galatians 5 in the Passion Translation.
“As you yield freely and fully to the dynamic life and power of the Holy Spirit, you will abandon the cravings of your self-life. For you self-life craves the things that offend the Holy Spirit and hinder him from living free within you. And the Holy Spirit’s intense cravings hinder your old self-life from dominating you! The Holy Spirit is the only One who defeats the cravings of your natural life.”
I have seen this so many times. The more I just focus on the Holy Spirit, he consumes me. When I focus on getting rid of my bad habits, I fail.
It’s like with my eating. For so long I focused on what I shouldn’t eat. I made lists, I banned sugar. I would focus so much on what not to have that I craved it all the more.
Then there was switch. A list of what I should eat. A plan. A new focus. Suddenly I was so aware of what I should be eating and when I should be, that my cravings became less.
When I read this verse, dear friend, I knew I had to share it with you. Why? Because I know that you are like me, and we fall into the trap of running after perfection. We start focusing on what not to do, instead of freely falling in the love of the Father and the dynamic life and power of the Holy Spirit.
So I asked the Holy Spirit, what are you saying? I felt him whisper:
Surround yourselves with me. Run after nothing else. I am not like chasing the wind. I will be found by you.
Some of you have tried so hard to defeat the negative things in your life that you have felt like God has abandoned you. You have believed you will never find him. But he says that you just need to surround yourself with him.
It’s simply a perspective change from seeking change to seeking the only One who can change everything!
Seek him first. Stop the pursuit of works, the pursuit of results. Cry out to him. He will be found by you!
You will find that breathless feeling will leave, and the peace you so desire will fill your spirit, soul and body.
Holy Spirit, thank you that you are the one who unlocks the dynamic life of power! It’s sounds so exhilarating and adventurous, and you know I crave it. I pray that today my friends would experience you like never before. That as they asking you to draw near, that you would blow them out of the water with how you want to move! Give them peace! In Jesus’ Name! Amen.