When I graduated from high school, the Lord decided to alter my plans. I had been banking on my own plan, literally. In terms of finances I hadn’t sought him out on what I should do, I just defaulted to getting a student loan.
When the Lord changed my plans, he sent me to a bible school that wasn’t accredited, which meant no loans.
I had worked my butt off through high school, holding down as many as three jobs at a time while striving for excellence at school. It was hard to say the least. But I had to help my family. My mom was a newly single mom with four children, dealing with everything on her own for the first time.
Needless to say, though I worked a lot, I didn’t have a lot saved.
I remember meeting with the director of the school and saying “God really wants me here but I don’t have the money right now.”
He looked at me graciously, already knowing how clearly the Lord had confirmed that I needed to attend this school.
“I think the Lord is asking you what’s in your hands”.
I stared blankly.
He continued. “When everyone was hungry after Jesus had been teaching all day, the disciples didn’t know how they would feed everyone. Jesus asked, what was in their hands. What did they have. They found they had three loaves of bread and four fishes.”
I thought about that story. Such a tiny amount of food for potentially around 15,000 people.
“Then Jesus took what they had and he blessed it. And there was more than enough to feed everyone. He can provide, but he wants to know what’s in your hands.”
I was so overwhelmed. I had to find out everything I had. I knew the Lord was going to pull through for me.
I had a little bit of money in a savings account, something in an investment, and a measly amount in my chequing account.
I pulled it all out and gave it the school and we prayed.
Within a couple of days I received a call from one of the directors who was obviously crying.
“We can hardly believe this! Someone just called in and anonymously paid most of your tuition! All you have left is a small portion of your mission’s trip to fundraise for!”
I hung up the phone completely awestruck at what God had done. That he had taken the tiny amount in my hands and blessed it so radically.
There were other tight times throughout those years, but God always provided, always came through.
This morning I read this passage of scripture again. It happens to be on a day where I don’t feel I can do what I need to do.
All I had to do was read this story and my faith was multiplied. If the Lord could do that with my finances, he can do that with my strength, my courage, my emotional stamina, my energy, even my sleep.
Today, I believe the Lord is asking “what’s in your hands”.
“Later that afternoon the disciples came to Jesus and said, ‘it’s going to be dark soon and the people are hungry, but there is nothing to eat here in this desolate place. You should send the crowds away to the nearby villages to buy themselves some food.’
‘They don’t need to leave.’ Jesus responded. ‘You give them something to eat.’
They answered, ‘But all we have is five barley loaves and two fish.’
‘Let me have them.’ Jesus replied. Then he had everyone sit down on the grass as he took the five loaves and two fish. He looked up into heaven, gave thanks to God, and broke the bread into pieces.”
Matthew 14:15-19 (The Passion Translation)
You know what it says after they had passed out all the food?
“And everyone ate until they were satisfied, for the food was multiplied before their very eyes!”.
What do you have? Give it to Jesus today and see how he blesses it to accomplish exactly what he sets out to do in your life!
Lord, I thank you that you have supernaturally provided for me on so many occasions, and I can say with great faith that you provide in all ways. I ask today that a great measure of faith would be poured into the one who is discouraged and reading these words, and that they would experience breakthrough beyond their wildest dreams by stepping out and giving you what they have. In your powerful name, Jesus Christ!
Me and my future husband during our time at school, before we were together. I didn’t know here that we would be married, let alone doing all we do together! The Lord has been so faithful and has blessed the small amount we had to give.