Soup bubbled on the stove. Butter, sugar and eggs waited in a mixing bowl to become cookie dough and veggies sat on the cutting board.
The minutes ticked away until Andrew would walk in the door. I felt ahead of the game that night. The house was only a category one of disasters, much less than most evenings. The kids were relatively content.
I glanced at my phone and saw the big scary word “UNKNOWN” as it rang silently.
Everything was on schedule and I didn’t want to ruin it. I stared for a moment. My normal “just leave it” inclination vanished and I quickly answered before the caller hung up.
On the other end of the line was a voice so familiar and yet different.
“Would you and your husband please come and adopt my baby?”
My heart pounded something fierce. So opposite to the first time this happened when tears spilled down my face and joy exploded and there was no way my answer would be no.
In the days that have followed I have had to do many difficult things. I’ve had to reopen my heart and remind myself of the promises I’ve made to God that are not at all dependent on my circumstances.
The sting of defeat felt all to real again. My mind told me I know better than to do this privately.
And in the midst of doing many hard things faithfully day after day, I’ve felt the Holy Spirit whisper something of great importance. Something that I feel with great urgency to pass along to you.
Your brave yes is not always found in the adventure or first time experiences. Your brave yes will often be found in the known, perhaps memorized and the painfully familiar. It’s a yes that still shows up when you’ve been hurt. That tries again when you’ve faced defeat. It’s a yes that remains even when everything within you wants to scream a fear filled no.
This kind of brave yes is a call to remind ourselves of the Apostle Paul’s encouragement:
“Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.”
Galatians 6:9 NIV
And to dig down deep when we are hurt and feed our soul with the truth of this verse:
“Don’t just pretend to love others. Really love them.”
Romans 12:9a NLT
It’s a reminder that those who have gone before us have lived a life that cost them much and so we have the freedom that we do:
“They make firm commitments and follow through, even at great cost.” Psalm 15:4b TPT
You just might have been looking for the next big step of faith and it hasn’t come because there is a big breakthrough waiting for you on the other side of faithfulness.
Or perhaps you were obedient to the step of faith and it didn’t work out the way you hoped, but the real test of faith is in the will you try again?
You could be asked to forgive when all your want to do is hold on.
You may be discontent in your marriage and all you want to do is quit but this is your moment of yes to see it through to victory.
You may be hurt and want to recoil but brave love says communicate.
You may be fighting to stay consistent in your parenting, wanting to give in, and this is your chance to sow deeply into the lives of the ones you’ve been entrusted with, even when it’s unimaginably hard.
A brave yes will rarely be glamorous and exciting, even when others may think it is from the outside. You know that blood, sweat, and tears accompany anything worth fighting for. You won’t feel like Wonder Woman blocking arrows as you head across the battlefield.
But these days are important.
This yes matters.
Stay the course. I can feel that a big victory is coming.
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