January 1st, 2021 I shared a picture of my baby bump and waded back into the waters of Instagram (I had decided to just come back to one platform).
For one week.
It’s been over a year since I wrote a blog post. 2020 had me off of social media and taking a break from all things writing and sharing. It’s pretty crazy to think back on that year and see how God was setting me up for a unique time in lockdown due to COVID, and then being away from my online community.
During that week I posted a couple of times on my profile and my stories. I set some pretty clear time boundaries on when I could check it and had pre-decided with my family what I could share online.
I felt pretty confident that I could “manage” my social media use, keeping it in check.
But then the end of the week came and I felt the Holy Spirit whisper a question:
“So, how do you feel after that week?”
Suddenly I realized I felt empty, exhausted, vulnerable and a little bit defeated. I had worked hard to keep it all in check, and in the mean time wasted a ton of my energy (that I had spent on other wonderful things in the past year), simply managing it all. As great as my plan was to only follow a select group of people so that I wouldn’t get distracted, I came back to find that there was now a feature called “Suggested Posts”, that I couldn’t turn off. My scrolling wasn’t as easy to control when my feed quietly transitioned from the few I was following into a bunch of suggested posts that were of course right up my alley.
I found myself irritated with my kids for no reason during the time I was able to check my phone. Like they were interrupting something important.
I worshipped less. Read less. Sat in quiet less. Felt less peace. Enjoyed my kids less. Talked with my husband less.
And while it’s not wrong to be on social media and a lot of you can manage your time well, I realized that after such a significant detox from that world, just dipping my toe back in felt like a loss of ground in my life. It’s hard to outsmart a system that’s set up to keep you hooked online.
I had made such significant leaps and bounds in my faith and in my family during my time offline, and it’s not something I’m willing to trade for anything. Time is the most significant commodity that I have.
So what to do? I have had lots in my heart to share, and writing is a creative outlet that restores my soul in a season were I give out pretty much everything I have.
Once again, counter intuitive to all that make sense in the world of the internet, I’m going to try something different. I’m going to write without being on social media. I have no idea who will read it, or how I will get my words out to others, but if there is one thing I’ve learned over the last while is that I can trust God. If he wants it to happen, he makes a way. We never have to compromise. Ever.
If it hurts our hearts, souls and families, we can go without it and he can make a way where there seems to be no way.
I won’t be able to connect with you on social media, but I hope you will leave comments and engage with me here. And if you read a post that strikes your heart, by all means you can share it on your social media profile…but would you consider another option?
Would you see who is being highlighted in your heart as you read and send the link to them personally?
In a world where we are constantly throwing out articles and information into cyberspace hoping someone is changed by it, we can offer a personal touch that reaches out and says: hey, I thought of you. I think this would encourage you. I wanted you to know God put you on my heart.
I really believe that’s how we’re going to impact others with words, and love.
The Lord has done a lot in my life, and I’m excited to share with you what he’s been doing over the last year and a bit. Some of the ways he’s been moving might be different than how he has moved in yours, but this isn’t about comparison or judgement. It’s about inspiring one another to live brave, bold, beautiful lives for Jesus. In whatever way he leads us to do so. You might be fine on social media. That’s great. We need people to shine the light of Jesus there too.
For me right now my brave is carrying life again, my bold is educating and discipling my children at home and the beautiful is embracing every moment of motherhood and life at home.
I’m excited for what this year holds. Proverbs 9:11 holds a key that keeps me in peace regardless of what God has asked me to do.
Wisdom will extend your life,
making every year more fruitful than the one before.
The Passion Translation
Every year more fruitful than the one before. Incredible. There’s no room for fear in that.
Here’s to the most fruitful year of life yet!
Me and my FOUR kiddo’s last weekend! I feel so deeply blessed to be carrying this rainbow baby. More about that to come in the future. I’m celebrating 29 weeks today, relishing every kick and soaking up the wonder in my other three children’s eyes as my belly grows.