One time during the last couple of weeks, I said to the Lord, “Why do I have to have strong convictions in so many areas of life? It feels impossible to walk well in all of them.”
It might sound crazy, but sometimes I feel overwhelmed by all that I believe deeply in.
I believe in breastfeeding.
I believe in homeschooling.
I believe in staying married to my husband.
I believe in learning to live a sugar free life.
I believe in unmedicated birth.
I believe in reading a lot of books.
I believe in removing white flour from our diet.
I believe in lots of margin in my schedule.
I believe in being content on one income.
I believe in being part of a church family.
I don’t mean these things to the same degree as saying that I believe in Jesus, that is ultimate and the most important thing. But these are all things I value so much and believe in their importance in my life.
Some of these things you will believe in too. You might not care if you breastfeed your baby, but you are committed to your spouse “til death do you part”.
You might act on the conviction of removing sugar from your life in a more focused way than me, but be living with no margin.
All of these things are deeply valued by me. But to see them all walked out can take a lot of work. It has looked like breastfeeding through mastitis, reading to my kids when I’m tired, tweaking muffins to be frugal and healthy (because I value being on one income!) from scratch when the box at the store would save me a lot of time. It has looked like saying no to a lot of things I want to do.
I was watching the men’s marathon on the final day of Olympics. It was incredible to see who is being referred to as the King of the Marathon in the modern era clinch gold again. There was something about Eliud Kipchoge from Kenya that made me know something deeper drove him on.
It was no surprise to find out that he is a believer in Jesus. I could just feel it as he ran across the finish line.
As I read about him, something he said stood out to me.
“The only thing that can push you is to believe in yourself, and to believe in what you are doing.”
Reading this made everything clear. Believing deeply in what we are doing is one of life’s main motivators.
We don’t have to run from the feeling of believing deeply in what we are doing with our lives.
In fact if we don’t have the feeling that what we are doing is extremely important, it’s probably a sign that we need to ask God if we’re on the right track.
God created conviction and passion to motivate us to live the life he is calling us to. It’s going to push us to get up in the morning. To work hard. To not give up.
He will give us different convictions and different passions, but it’s for the purpose of enabling us to run the race that he has set before us.
The truth is, unlike Kipchoge, I don’t always believe in myself. How can I value margin in my schedule while I’m homeschooling, nursing a baby around the clock and making healthy food? It’s beyond me.
As Sarah Mackenzie says in her book “Teaching From Rest”,
“On an ordinary Monday, I’m in need of a miracle of biblical proportions.”
While I don’t always have confidence that I can do it, I know that God’s grace empowers me to do what I could never have imagined doing before. Surrendered to Jesus, he can multiply my few loaves and fishes.
Timothy, my dear son, live your life empowered by God’s free-flowing grace, which is your true strength, found in the anointing of Jesus and your union with him!2 Timothy 2:1 TPT
Carry on, passionate one! Allow your deeply rooted values and ideals to push you to places you never imagined. Watch God empower you to do what you never thought possible! Live this one life he has given you! Run YOUR marathon and see God’s power manifest in all that you do!